Bryan, where are you?

Bryan... Where are you? Where had you been? What had you done? Who are you? What are you?

I been counseling most of my friends, share with them.. shared my opinion on their situation...
but...
I am the one that need to be counseled....

They telling me, they are lost..they dunno what they need to do..
I shared what i think and saw to them...and told them not to give up, keep running, hold you dream tight..and at the end of the day, you dream will come true.
but the funny things is...
how can i counsel people when I'm in the same situation..huh???

where did i get the confidence to counsel people?? huh?!

They told me they are lost, so am I...

I AM LOST...

I totally don't know what to do next...
I tried to do and work things the best...
I tried so hard to chance my life..
and at the end...
nothing change...and things just get worst and worst...


Bryan, where are you?! What are you doing? I can't see where you going? Are you moving?
I don't KNOW!
seriously, I am tired...

Tonight, I saw a true man...cried..
He reminded me...is been a long time...tears never drop out from my eyes...
Am i still human? Or my heart being frozen for some reason...it turn to stone???

or
I kept everything myself...so it turn to thing situation.

The reason that i made this step is to improve, grown, make my family and my beloved happy in the future... but i fail...

nothing chance...
nothing improve...
the worst is i brought lots more trouble to them...

I do not wan to give up just like this... I know i can be better, what am i right now..
I know I want and I CAN be better and the BEST...

but now...
A warrior need to rest too, still they are human.

for the man that drunk and cried today...
you are lucky that, you still have the chance to drunk yourself and cried..
This means you are still human..
I scared to get myself drunk.. i am scared...
I just want to talk.......................to someone...that i can..tell...

huh...tired....good night guys...
wish you all have a nice and sweet dream..especially Bryan.


positive energy, COME TO ME!!! COME!! C O M E ! ! !